As my bell rang,i quickly compose myself and brave up to the situation as i dont want to look like a child caught with stolen meat.He walked in with smile and hugged me,i noticed he was looking everywhere to see God knows what.He brought me some goodies and was just all over me as if iam a new catch.He was just eyeing me and saying sweet things in my ear and i was skeptical somehow bcos this is a man i had tried everything to make peace with and he was just forming and now at my mercy.Well,maybe he thought over everything and see that he need to be reasonable and mature.I did not have any special food at home so we decided to have lunch out and as we got to Golden gate,my phone rang and i just summoned courage and picked it and it was Oye calling tosay hi and to know what time to picked me and started a long conversation i just laughed and said will call you later.He stylishly asked on our way back home and i just said a friend called to get somebody number and since i did have it,its better i called her later.

We were still in our cuddling mood when my friend called again and i just picked it and said hello as if i did not hear him and just switched the phone to silence but it brought a bigger problem.I guess after calling repeated without response and i did not have that chance as the man dey monitor my move as if he knew i was up to something to text or call him to cancelled the date,he just showed up at my door step.I greeted him warmly and offered him a seat but the atmosphere was tense.I asked after his folks and business-unnecessary pleasantries and just left them in the sitting room to get my bearing.I think my friend got the message and just called me that he just stopped by to say hi and will come some other time, i just rushed out and said sorry i was just putting on something decent.I saw him off and met an angry man in tthe house,asking me all sort of stupid questions but i just kept quite as i needed my peace.The day was ruined as he left too in annoyance because i refused to answer his queries and he remembered him as the guy i hugged at the airport and he felt betray.

I have never been in a situation that i experience last saturday.I was suppose to have dinner with my friend-Oye on that day as agreed but something was just not right as i just woke up feeling somehow as per the direction of my personal life.Reuby woke me up with his call very early in the morning telling me he has a function somewhere in badagry and want to know if its okay with me to go with him and i was like he should have informed me earlier so that i can organise myself,he just said that means he now need permission to be with me and dropped.Iam not ready for all that nonsense and in any case i have not asked for too much,respect beget respect and i have made up my mind that he either trust me or do whatever that suits him. I was just relaxing in the house watching niger home video since i dont have the intention of going out till later in the day and a private call came in on my cell,ordinarily i dont pick such call but i did and it turned out to be my man saying is on my street and will be with me in the next five minutes and will stay overnight and i just said iam in.I was just confused and can not see how i can get myself out of it and can not tell him not to stay like that without any reason as he is a nice person despite his attitude these days and i know he is just being a typical Africa man-too possessive.

My childhood friend have been calling me day and night since we parted at the church,telling me how he is being in love with me for long but did not have the courage to tell me as i was too formal with the guys and my parent being very strict -he never have the liver to express his feelings and after his seperation with his wife,he just decided he should go back to his root and look for somebody he knows very well and his parent have been encouraging him to come to the family church so that he can mix with the people he grew up with and his chance meeting with me at the airport change all that and he likes me and we should give it a chance and see how far we can take it.Iam always polite to him but never promise anything as i dont want to double deal though my man is not married to me but i think i owe him that because he is being good to me and didnt deserve such treatment.

Funnily,Reuby called today to say hello and asked after my well being and if i still remember him at all and i just said iam okay and been busy with work and since he abandoned me God have been faithful to me in all ways.He wanted to know if my folks have been asking of his whereabout and what i told them which i replied that they never asked and i didnt bother to tell them anything but i noticed he didnt like my reply and he said he is sure my mother will be happy to see us seperated as she never support our relationship.I just ignored his comment and asked after his family and he just said fine.We did not have much to discuss as he is still feeling uptight and i dont want to sound desperate and be apologetic for doing nothing.

My parent invited me for special evening service in their church yesterday and i had no choice than to just make that time out from my tight schedule.I left office early to have time to go home and change to something casual and suitable for the outing.I tried not to argue with my parent again when it come to religion matter and when they tried to advise me as they mean well for me.It was when i got there that i realise why my mother insisted on my coming as if their church is where God hear prayer.It was a sort of reunion service as i saw quite a lot of people that i have not seen for a long time and my friend that i saw at the airport the other day was there and he came over to meet me and told me my mother told him i will be there when he asked after me from her as i did not give him my phone numbers that day as i was in a hurry and he is been looking for way to get me as he want us to get together for a chat.

We sat together throughout the service and the pastor was more or less matchmaking the spinster as most of his preaching are based on union of like mind and how it will be good if the members can remain in the fold as we already have the christian upbringing which can be a yardstick for matrimonial harmony.We parted later with agreement that we will have dinner together on saturday and he promise to call me later which he did as soon as i got home.I later discovered through my mother that he is seperated from his wife and his parent are concerned and wish he could get a good wife from the church and i now know my mother can never change her tactics,so she is trying to matchmake us-well lets wait and see now that my big baby is misbehaving.

Updating you have become a big task for me as my schedule in the office now give me no time for other things-my personal life is really suffering.When i get home these days, i just have my bath and make few calls and off to my bed,eating so late is my not my hobby so i just slept off. When we are at the lower cadre of management,we think the people there have it all but the pressure they go through we never know and now,i know better-executive stress is a killer and i intend to slow down before i breakdown.My big boy is still doing his shakara and i intend to show him this time around that the fact that i decided to stay with him does not mean i still dont get stares.Surprisingly,my mother have been calling to know the latest but iam sure all she want to hear is i am not seeing him again but time will tell.

Wonder shall never end,he called me out of the blue yesterday morning that he will be arriving later in the day and that he will come directly to my house and has instructed the driver to use my car to pick him up from the airport.I decided to follow the driver to the airport to look like a good girl and probably make him feel special and understand that i do care about him but unfortunately that brought another problem,as he was just coming out and i was walking down to where he was -an old childhood friend just called my name and he happened to be somebody i can not just ignored and had to hug him and he was just holding me for too long and smiling. I saw him looking at us and i did not even know what to do or say.He just followed the driver out and i quickly excused myself and my friend was like why the hurry and wanted to know if my guest has arrived and i just say we will see again.

On our way home,he just asked if everything is okay and how are my parents and i said fine.He kept quiet for a while and later just said i can see you are fine and keeping yourself busy and i just pretended as if i didnt hear him.When we got home, I tried all ladies tricks to get him out of that his jealous mood and was just feeling somehow with himself and i tactically ignored him-your guess is as good as mine.The driver was in my place this morning with his car to take him home as agreed and i left for my office.He promise to call me later in the day. Me don tire for all these talk to me alone.

Diary,this my man is really forming despite my begging-he still have not shown up in my place.He never bothered to even call till yesterday when he called that he is somewhere in South Africa.I could not stomach the nonsense again and had to confide in my mummy when she came to my house onm sunday and as expected she started with her long story.She belief that the world is full of choices and I can get a better and less complicated person with prayer.She ended her sermon with how the patience dog eat the fattest bone and I responded that these days patience dog never get anything to eat as the impatience ones would have finished them but she still refused to buy my argument.After she left my place,I thought of all she said and iam like what the hell is the man getting annoyed over,he has not caught me with another man and he himself is enjoying two worlds and i give him his space and dont bother my head on what happen in his private life and he is unnecessary jealous,what else does he want,to mortgage my life to him-No way