My weekend started on a good note but spoilt by the ADC plane crash,its tragic and sad and my friend's childhood friend was among the victim.We were at the church when he received a text message from another friend of the crash and he shouted and all the church member were alarmed till they got to know why he did that.

I want to use this forum to console the families of the victims that God in his infinity will heal their heart.May we never witness such again in this country,father lord should please forgive everyone of us our sins.

My man is been harassing me with calls since we met accidentally in Port harcourt and i refuse to picked his calls because i dont want to hear cock and bull stories.I got home yesterday to see a lovey dovey card and a basket containing all range of toiletries and perfume in my living room-shooo i don be beautiful bride being courted.I was touched by the gesture and called his line,he quickly picked it at the first rang and was just darlin darlin me but i just said thanks for the gift.He wanted to know if i still feel for him and what we need to do to get the groove back and he could create that time for us to go somewhere together for a week which i just said i will think about it and call him for weekend.
This life is somehow,two years ago-i was that lonely old cargo praying that any man should come into my life and make me complete because in Africa,you can have all the riches and position but if you are not Mrs somebody,your friends and enemies will laugh at you behind you and make you feel inferior.My mother always tell me that mine will come and i should not rush myself to stupid arrangement and now i begin to see her point.But what do i do now?hang on to another woman's husband or stay with a seperated partner but what if they get back together,afterall they are not divorce.

Thank God for sallah break,I had time to unwind and relax.I used the opportunity to travel to Portharcourt to see my best friend who just gave birth to twins after 15 years of marriage.Iam so happy for her and the husband,you can imagine the agonising period they shared together.I got there Saturday morning and intend staying in hotel but my friend couldnt hear that,she wondered why i have to do that since they have a whole house with boys quarter to themselves and cant imagine the kind of privacy i needed that their house cant provide.I acted the role of godmother perfectly and even asked her to have 2 nights with her hussy undisturbed,i assisted her nanny with the night duties.Her husband insisted on showing me the hospitality of the city and we were out saturday night to an exclusive club for the yupies and you can imagine my discovery.As soon as we got there,my friend hussy was all over the place and i saw another side of him,i always see him as the quite and faithful husband but he painted the place red with all those curvy belles.I just sat in a corner discussing with one of his friend he introduced to me but he was definately trying to matchmake us.

I was just enjoying myself there when i noticed a familiar figure and behold,its my oga with a handbag and somehow i was jealous but pretended as if i did not see him.I was monitoring him from afar,he looked so handsome and had the mind of going to his table but didnt want to embarrassed myself.I later followed my company to the dance floor and i was deliberately flirting with him so that if he sees me ,he will feel what i was feeling.This thing called emotions can betray you at anytime,this is me saying i want to move on but my heart is still with him.He eventually saw me and came over to our table and i greeted him like a lost friend and nothing more and asked him to enjoy his stay.

I wonder how girls who do runs cope with all the troubles,I landed myself in a tight corner again yesterday.My friend called me as i was about to round up for the day,that he was somewhere close to my office and was thinking if he could picked me up for a drink somewhere and i should probably leave my car in the office since he can drop me at home and even pick me up in the morning for office.Since iam already enjoying his company and i guess creating time together can make me know him well-i just said its okay without thinking of the consequence of my action as my oga says he will be in my place later. He took less than 10 minutes to get to me and had to leave the car and ask my driver to meet me in the office tomorrow instead of coming home.My heart was beating very fast as i did not know how to manage my situation-wanting to give another person a chance and at the same time not making my dear feel used and dumped.I had to put my phone on silence when we got to the place in order to feel relax and enjoy myself.The place turned out to be a joint for the big guys and is exclusive,i saw one of our director there with a babe but he didnt see me.We just gisted generally,bought suya and drinks.On our way back to my place,he asked me what i think of him and does he have a chance with me.I just said he is fun to be with and i always enjoy his company but need time to get to know him all over again and he wonder why i need that time as we grew up together and have a lot in common and if we put our mind in the relationship,something concrete could develop.

We got to my house around 11pm and was smart enough to get to my door first and picked the note my man dropped.He followed me in and immediately he entered,he just move closer to me and gave me a deep kiss and God,that guy smell good and couldnt resist responding.Iam really in a fix,how can i start two timing at my age and exposure-i hate scandal of any sort.

After my visit to Oye's place last sunday and his explanation on his seperation with his wife,i began to see him in a different way.I never want to be in the same position as iam with my dear,so i certainly want to know and understand the situation and weight my coin.I did not bother to ask him about the boy in the picture as it will look somehow,i want him to come out with the whole story-i dont want to be too inquisitive.He is a nice guy and tight upstairs-there is nothing like a guy you can connect with intellectually but i still need to be careful and do my own finding before i can make up my mind on moving the relationship to another level.

My dear called me in the office today to ask after my general well being and to know how i spend my weekend and whether i even miss him at all which i answered positively. I knew he wanted to know whether i was at home or not and start his sermon on my new found friend but i didnt give him that pleasure.He said he will be in my place later if i dont have other engagement for the evening and i just pretend as if i didnt hear the snide comment and i said its okay and that my house is his and will be welcome any day!.I think i need to get my ass together though its flattering to know you can still get attention despite being on the shelve for long but at my level,i need to put things right but how do i go about it .

Weekend was good,i had a nice time.My friend was in my house friday evening and we ended up going to jazz club and i really enjoyed myself, he was all over me like mother hen and he ensure everybody knows he was with me and cant just grab me but was tired on saturday and had to stay indoor as its be a long while i loosen up like that.I think somehow iam rediscovering some things buried in me,i guess due to pressure of job and being a good girl to my main man-i have lot touch with happenings.My friend's call woke me up around 4pm on saturday and couldnt belief i slept for so long,i think my body need a lot of exercise if i can crashed like that after a night-out.He called to remind me of our earlier plan to picked me up in the evening so that i can get to know his place and he was in my place for 6.30 and for God knows what,i was nervous and behaving like a teenager going on her first date.He lives in a duplex in Lekki phase 1 and cosy place and he has nice taste and he took me round the house and no female touch and i saw a boy picture in the sitting room and in his bedroom which he said he is his son but not from his wife.I was curious to know more about him but did not want to look too inqisitive and desperate.We rounded up the inspection in his garden at the back of the house and i just kept quite and just looking which he noticed and asked me loosen up.

He told me what led to his seperation from his wife-they did not have kids after ten years in marriage and he was supportive about it all but she woke up one day and said they should try other people as it seems they are not compatible.He thought it was a joke after all the battle they had gone through but she had her plans,she just packed out one day and left a note that she has relocated to America.

I cant thank God enough for his mercies over me-things are looking up all ways for me.My friend kept in touch throughout his stay in London and iam getting to know him all over again.I had to pick him up from the airport this morning before going to office as agreed and was so excited when he saw me and i cant but kiss him.I dropped him at home on my way to office and he promise to see me later in the day.I got a surprise this afternoon when my oga called to say he saw me at the airport with the same guy he met in my house and he just decided to call me for old time sake and implore me not to just throw away what we have for unknown person and that i should be fair to him despite all our disagreement,he still love me.I was just amused that so it takes competition for this man to wake up from his slumber.This is the same man i have been begging to mellow down over his pettiness and he was behaving as if my life will stop if he leave me and now he is telling me not to throw away what we have as if he cares that much-he that for sometime now he never call nor pick my calls.I think i now understand the game-keep your man on his toes and he will be all over you.Though iam confuse about the whole issue-thanks to my mother who lectures me on how its better to stay with a divorcee than being with a married man who does not have any loyalty or commiment to me and iam just at a crossroad.

This is to appreciate everybody reading my diary,thanks for your comments-negative and positive.It gladden my heart to read different comments and also get mails from men who think they can make me happy-i love you all and keep reading my diary and i hope to be open as much as possible with happenings in my life.Thanks once again

When i got to the hotel room later,i reflected over my acceptance of his coming to meet me and i doubted if i did the right thing.Yes,we grew up together and we are more or less family friend and goes to the same family church but that doesnt mean i know him.We are now adults and have passed through different experiences and what do i know about him than my mother views which look positive but my mother is just trying to matchmake us and his folks too are encouraging it.I was at crossroad and could not call him back to stop the arrangement and i just decided to face the consequence of my action.He arrived on friday as he said and he was gentleman enough to get his room but same hotel and we had fun though there were hugs here and there but were innocent.He tookme round places as he is used to the place and i realised Dubai is a good place to visit for vacation instead of everybody jumping on plane to good old London.We parted on sunday on good note and i respect him more for the way he comported himself and was not typical Lagos guys who know nothing more than getting down to business.I think i will see him again and again but less wait and see

I was in Dubai throughout last week on an improptu official assignment,my colleague that was suppose to represent the company at the Telecomm Fair was hospitalised and management decided to send me in her place.I was not really in the mood for that after all the stress that i passed through over the weekend but who am i to say NO when my employer says YES.I called my oga that monday before i left but he was just himself asking me why i bothered to tell him and since i dont need his permission to do what i like and i just dropped the call.
I had a nice time and the fair was educating,i met quite a lot of people and i use that opportunity to unwind and visit a lot of nice spot-the place is a nice tourist centre.I called my friend from there to apologise for my behaviour on that day and he took it lightly and we even joke about the whole thing and i promise to take him out for dinner when i get back on my bill.Thereafter,he calls me day and night and we had lot to gist about and i find him intelligent and he just asked me on thursday when i was leaving and i said Sunday morning and he asked jokingly whether i could obliged him my company for 2 days and i said why not without thinking and he said he has an appointment in London for Monday afternoon and he could route his ticket through Dubai and meet on friday and leave for London on sunday and i was trapped somehow but who knows