A little drama almost happened at the airport on friday,Reuby was in my place as earlier as possible so that his personal assistant and driver can check in our luggage before we get to the airport but unfortunately he forgot something at home and the wife had to come to airport to give him and he met them without the husband and she was suspicious and decided to wait but fortunately the driver was smart enough to alert us and we had to enter enter the airport seperately-what a narrow escape as i cant imagine the scenerio

I travel improptu last friday,my dear was with me later in the day on thursday for our private celebration of my promotion and casually asked if i could be excuse from duty for two days i.e Friday and Monday so that i can go with him to paris as he has a paper to deliver over the weekend and we will get back Monday evening.I quickly called my immediate boss that i had to attend to some issues urgently and will need to be off for two days,he finally agreed with the promise that i will be back in office on Tuesday and luckily,my shengen visa has not expired.He wanted us to go out and have quite celebration in somewhere cosy but i refused that i will do that in the privacy of my house and couple with the fact that we have not really have private moment after my sickness and truly,my reserve is down and i need that top up.We were together till 11pm when he has to go home to get himself ready for tomorrow as he already called somebody to get our tickets ready.

Iam so happy today,i just got promoted to senior manager though i will still be the company secrectary but with higher pay and responsibilities.I thank God for his mercies when i was just thinking he has forsake me in my trial moment,now he surprise me with this upliftment-i will continue to serve him.My dear was so happy when i told him,he said he is always telling me i will go places and sky is just not my limit and that i can get to my potential with hard work and perseverance-that guy is just too cool for me,he so much belief in me and encourage me all the way.I can not get more from a man than what is giving me and in any case whats the guarrantee that single guy will not feel intimidated with my success. I love that guy so much and cant trade him for any man.When i called my parent,they were happy for me but wish i could complete their happiness by getting married and be like other girls.I just ignore their comment as i do not want them to spoil my mood and just drop the call.

My friends in the office sent in cards to congratulate me and i had to buy snacks for them in the spirit of the moment.My M.D. later called me to his office to wish me well in my new position and that i shoould work hard to justify the confidence repose in me-that man is like a father to us.

Iam back to my feet with lot of energy.I thank God for seeing me through the pains-i mean you never appreciate what you have until you lose it.I have been feeling somehow over the lose of my baby though i initially dont like the idea of just getting pregnant like that but have come to term with it before the unfortunate incidence.I now understand better why women always fret over their children,there is this special bond that will be there from onset.When i get into that mood,i picture the baby i would have delivered and how it would have made my life complete and pray it wouldnt be a major calamity in my life as iam not young again and the effect of what i passed through during that period.

Dear have been supportive and gave me reassuring words and pray that in due course,we will get another one.Whatever misgiving my folks have against him,the guy is really good to me and i can not exchange him for another man-ring or no ring,iam his for life and no matter what comes out of it,iam ready to face it.Iam back to office and moving ahead with my life and pray for the best.

I got back home yesterday and met my place decorated with flowers and welcome back card in my living room and was really moved by the gesture-that man is so romantic and thoughtful.He sent his driver to picked us up as he earlier said and some goodies.My mother too was impressed but she is just a die-hard person who only see what she want to see and just smile without commenting but it shows on her face.She made me good home food and treated me like she use to do when i was young-thank God for mothers though they could be pain in the neck but i love her. I just pretended as if i needed to sleep to afford her sermon and just went to my room to have my space.I called my love to thank him for everything and promise to be there for him always.I had the time to think over everything and realised that though my relationship with Reuby has its limitations but he makes me feel good and he is more than a partner to me-he makes me feel complete,he is a mentor and will forever be dear to me.

I am due to leave the hospital later today according to the Doctor and cant wait to get back to the comfort of my home.I notice that the 5 days sickness have done something to the relationship between my mother and my man,after he left us this morning-she commended him and say that he is responsible and really care for me and just that he belong to another woman and i just pretend as if i did hear her because i dont want to start all that.Iam sure her stress with that ugly incidence added to my predicament and i think i want to just be left alone for now and clear my head.My colleagues in the office too have been wonderful and my MD too said a funny card that i better get well and leave the bed as my work is begging for attention-he is just so humourous.

I just found myself on hospital bed on monday morning and could not remember how i got there in the first place.As i just opened my eyes i saw my mother with a distress look on her face and all kind of wires taped to my body and she just jumped up as i called her and i asked her what i was doing there.She told me my friend said she got to my place on saturday morning as we agreed and even wanted to sleep over so that we can have some time together to gist but noticed that i was looking frail and asked me if there was anything wrong with me and i said no.We were just in the kitchen to make lunch for us when i just collapse and before she could get somebody to assist her to put me in the car,i was bleeding and she just called her on her way to my office hospital and since then i have been in comma off and on.

I just dozed off after and faintly heard my man voice asking my mother how iam feeling now and if i have been able to say anything since he left.I just smile within myself that somehow he cares about my well being and wish i did not have to put him through all these stress but i did not pray to fall sick.By the following morning,i have regain my strength and can talk like i use to and was somehow pained that i lost the pregnancy and had to do evacuation.I thank God that my friend was with me when it happened and could quickly take me to hospitable-things like that easily kill women if they dont get assistance on time.My man was all over me and treated like his baby.

My friend was in my place yesterday as promise and we were just about mapping out our plan on how to get to the root of the matter,my bell just rang and it was my man.We just had to suspend our discussion to weekend when we will have all the time to our selves as we dont work on weekend,after some minutes,she left.I just greeted him with my nose and pretended as if i was tired so that i would have to be at his peck and call.He noticed my mood was still not okay and brought up the topic and i quickly tell him to forget it or should find something better to say than putting me on defensive.He tried to play typical Africa man-always right and in charge,he said he is already doing his own investigation and hope its not just one of my friend or an ex-babe(whats that suppose to mean) putting me on toes.I deduce from all his analysis that he knows something already but trying to cover up,i just told him to warn his babes or woman friend to stay away from me as iam not competiting with anybody and if he still feel he want to be flying about-the choice is his.We made up after that but i made it clear that when next anybody threaten me,i will call in the police and such,publicity will not be good for him and he just laugh

I could not sleep well yesterday and was just turning on my bed and can not call my mom because she will add more to my problem and was still in shock to even call dear as i could say something nasty to him.Age and wisdom have thought me that you dont talk when you are still angry.Iam just in a fix on what to do and with the recent development,i dont want to take a drastic action i might regret,on impulse,i just felt i should just go and see my doctor and forget the whole thing but i cant afford to abort at this my age and again,i do love my guy-iam at crossroad.My friend called me this afternoon to say hello and from the way i sounded she guess something is wrong with me and had to tell her the ugly incidence.She was scared for me and asked me to call my man and tell him so that he can search himself,afterall men can read us like paper and will surely know who among his girls can act like mad dog.She promise to see me later in the day at home so that we can strategise,she told me not to do something stupid.

I called him 10 minutes ago and he was so annoyed that somebody could do that and wonder who it could be.He said his wife is out of it but cant pinpoint who the devil could be and was even putting me on the defence.He even asked if i can think of anybody who feel her boyfriend is too close to me or have i ever have any confrontation over a man with anybody-imagine.I was pissed off with those his argument-what if the peson does something damaging,is that want he will be asking me- i just polite tell him i will call him when i feel better and drop.

I am beginning to feel somehow over my relationship with Reuby.On my way going home yesterday,my driver noticed that a car had been trailing us since we left office and i was like,maybe his imagination and should branch off at Mobil station along Lekki road and the same car did the same and as we were buying fuel,i just wind down the glass to allow fresh air in and the car just moved nearer to me and a lady in the car just shouted"slut,desperado and if you think you got him,you are joking and be ready for war".I was so scared and hurt and just imagine what if the person decided to do something damaging to me-probably pour acid or something.I was so downcast yesterday and cant imagine myself going through all that nonsense.Right,i want to be with a man but not at the expense of my life.I hear all that stories about girls going after their rivals but its insane to do that at all and for a married man,what will the wife do if other women are so desperate.Reuby's wife respect herself and will not do anything that will tarnish her husband imagine and she can never descend so low as that, based on what he told me about her and from my informants.

He once told me how his wife caught him red handed with a lady sometime ago at a party and he had lied that he was going to Abuja for a conference and by chance the wife was at the same party with her sister and she just walked up to their table and greeted them and just casually said-so you are back and didnt call home and just say hello to his lady and left and she never discussed it again.She is that type of person that have confident in herself and comport herself well at any time.

Weekend was so hectic for me, had to go over to my folks place to try and explain things to them and how I need their cooperation over the development. My mom as usual was herself, telling me how I want to shortchange myself because I lost faith in the Lord and that some people are older than me and are still waiting on the lord and not getting desperate to marry a married man and was just pissed off with her though my father understand with me but he don’t seem to be able to convince mummy. I tried to correct her that my being with dear has nothing to be with desperation but mutual understanding and affection. After so much heated argument, she just said I should suit myself and since I said iam old enough to know what I want, then good luck to me but she will always be there for me and continue to pray for us. Well, I cannot refuse to grab my happiness because of my parent and really i do care for the man and he does same about me.I just dont know why good guys are already hooked up to someone.

My man later picked me up and my parent were like somehow cold to him and just answered him polite and left us in the sitting room but he said he understand their feelings and will come round when they realized he has good intention for me. On our way home, he casually said he had booked a table for us at a Lebanese restaurant in Ikeja and I just assumed he want to brighten me up after my parent stress but was surprise when we got there and met his 4 brothers and his sister, I just felt as if the ground should open up and swallow me. He introduced me to them as his special woman (I don’t know what that means) and he just want us to meet formally and since it’s going to be a lasting relationship, he thinks they must know me as his blood. I was just looking without knowing what to say. We chatted and got to know them properly and they also ask me whether I understand what their brother is offering me and ready to abide by his terms as his wife is dear to them and have no cause to do anything bad to her but must support their brother if that’s what he want and I just nodded.

I called my mother to know her view on the development and she was like well since thats what you want and you said you are old enough to know what you want,so as you lay your bed-lay on it.My mom can be impossible,when i thought we have passed that stage-she still belief there is a mr right for me despite my age and should not just make do with what is available but i think she is just not being realistic-can she allow her son who is like my age or younger to marry me and yes,i can get a single man but at my expense which i dont want to do as those guys that are my age or younger are just gigolo who want are looking for meal ticket and once they are okay,they move on to a younger lady.I will rather choose my man who belief in me,let me be myself and we are happy with each other-I guess you cant have it all.My mom will later come round to understand my point than just thinking about what will people say despite the upbringing she gave us but she must know that people will say more if i continue to stay on the shelf-laugh.

I was just feeling funny since the beginning of this week and got so bad yesterday that i could not eat anything without throwing up and had to go and see my Doctor on my way to office.I got a call some minutes ago from my doctor congratulating me and i was like for what and when he confirmed my suspicion,i just did not know what to say than thank you and will see you later.I do not know whether i should be happy with the development or not though i have always look forward to having my own kids but the news still rattle me.I dont know what happened as i always play safe and at my age,it must be at when we both agreed not just an improptu thing.

I called my dear and tried to get his opinion on the feasibility of my getting pregnant now and what happens thereafter and he likes that idea and wonder why that should bother me at this stage of our relationship.I now told him that i have just been informed am pregnant and that iam confuse and dont know whether the timing is right for him and since we never agreed on that as at the time.He just laughed and wondered why we need permision to consolidate our affair.The man is just something else and pray he continue to feel that way after everything and promise to come to pick me up later at home for us to go out and celebrate.I dont know why iam feeling this way,i just hope a change in our affair will not affect the relationship as my friends always says men change when you start having kids as they claim you now have something to occupy you and they can fly as they like-i fear o

My parent finally agreed to have lunch with Reuby after so much pleading.My man just wanted us to take them along with our arrangement and that its necessary to always have parent blessing and support.When i told them my man want to formally meet them over lunch at their convenience place,they were like for what purpose and that as far as they are concerned,he does not exist and if i feel thats what i want-goodluck to me.My mom and of course her darlin are two of a kind but daddy can see reason but he doesnt want to disagree with his wife view that its for my good and in any case,i cant be too choosy at this age and i want to start a family and have my kids and i want them from same person which fit perfectly with what my man want.